fuck yeah.
last time i wore contacts was on halloween
i think i’ve forgotten how to do them
and i was never much good in the first place
argh. i hate eyes.

lazer surgery&piano glasses please.

i am researching signing on.
you must be ‘out of work or working less than 16 hours per week’
-done, i work five.
available, capable of and actively seeking work
-true, after june 18th. except for going on holiday.

eee. it’s £50.95 but it says you might not get the full amount if you work part-time
i think i’m gonna be eligble as i’m not technically a full-time student if i’m between college and uni.
i might go down and have a word after my last exam.

I swear, I can’t stand this place
and whats becoming of me
the longer i have to stay.
I want to
think all unthinkable things
and say what I shouldn’t say
I need a change

this song couldn’t be more apt if it tried.

MUNDANE. LACKLUSTURE. MONOTONOUS.
three words that cover both myself and life in general.
i’m concise. and sick of everything and everyone.
i wish i was never born.

dear june,

words cannot express how much i missed you.

as if it’s actually june already.
as if i’ve forgotten to listen to nickasaur! for ages.

he makes some nice tunes but he ain’t half funny looking.

i wish they’d hurry up and have my prescription of contact lenses in stock, i really wanted to go swimming tomorrow!
they’d better have them soon…3-5 working days means it might be friday though, goddamnit.

question: when did you last play a board game?
answer: nye. it was cold and snowing and i didn’t want to get super dressed up to go to a bar in town where we spend 70% of our time in the courtyard or out front so i decided not to go. strangely, that’s where my brother ended up and i got some drunken phone calls of the homecrowd telling me about his ‘bad dancing’ but i went round to rachel’s house to get drunk with her and bella and we spent two hours playing cluedo.
i think i played frustration with my sister a couple of times last year and once michael came over to play monopoly (that we never even got round to) so my grand total of game playing in the past year is a pathetic 3.
i want people to play board games with me again and not get frustrated when we play monopoly.
i miss my grandma and playing dominos with me
i miss being little and playing ludo and snakes & ladders and rummikub with ellis tonnes.

weird. usually the sv questions of the day are just usa centered or really rubbish but that one actually reminded me of stuff.
y’all should join.

not that i use the ones i already have

i would like a new memory stick
specifically, this one:

i am so anxious.
i need to pick up a box of contact lenses
i am afraid of the opticians
i think the horrible bastards are going to tell me that my lens prescription has expired and that i need to pay for another traumatising check up.
it’s gonna cost me fifty pounds sterling to see, just because i want to go swimming.
SOMETIMES I HATE YOU, YOU FULL VISIONED BASTARDS.

oh man, i love spotify, it’s just introduced me to this

they’ve done electro versions of punk songs
they’ve done something horrible to my beloved ‘nobody’s hero’ by stiff little fingers
and you don’t even wanna know what they’ve done to ‘rock the casbah’.
it’s horrifying and mesmerising at the same time, i (sadly) am too tired to stay up and listen to the entire album but i reckon i’m gonna let myself discover what they’ve done to ‘beat on the brat’ before i head off to bed.

things other people have borrowed and not returned

rachel:
1x catch-22 (book)
1x interview with the vampire (book)
1x the vampire lestat (book)
2x polaroids

jessica:
splat! the true story of paintball (dvd)

michael:
1x pair of binoculars [that got destroyed by someone at your house party]

becky:
1x ps, i love you (book)
many pairs of socks

stacey:
1x unicorn broach [which i left at your house and you started using as your own]
1x leapoard print tote bag [which i lent you one day, for you to use it frequently for the next few months as your own]
1x personal notebook [which i have reminded you to return several times, one time even as i was sat in your bedroom]

chelsea skank:
1x donnie darko (dvd)

lucinda:
1x insight hoodie
1x my new obsession by i voted for kodos (cd)
1x meds by placebo (cd)
1x lenny kravitz greatest hits (cd)
1x good charlotte by good charlotte (cd)
1x the young and the hopeless by good charotte (cd)
1x sin city (dvd) [i think]
assorted other cds of personal high value. [ily but give them back ffs!]

i would like my belongings back.
i guess i’ve learnt never to lend people things.

i have borrrowed and not yet returned
lucinda:
1x the whole story by kate bush (cd)
1x gold [disc 2] by sublime (cd)
i’ve tried to give you them back before, you forgot to put them in your bag

becky:
1x jumper [that was supposed to be mine anyway. i put it aside to see if i could afford it and you picked it up and puchased it]
you left it at my house, i didn’t borrow it, and you’ve always cancelled when i’ve tried to organise giving it back, so after a year i decided to start wearing it. keep my book if you like. (see you already decided to).